About Her Life

Scary night

2011-10-15T12:19:00.005+08:00

Yesterday night, was the only night, that we didnt study for the last hour or so. Stories were told instead. HAHA. Was worth it actually. Wanted to relieve stress. For now, no regrets. Hopefully in the future too..

picture extracted from inspiring-pictures

When i look at you, i feel homed.

2011-08-28T23:14:00.007+08:00

"You make me feel like a complete work of art,

when im just falling apart."

special day.

2011-08-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

Haha today had a birthday "ride" on a trolley. My friend pushed me and i screamt all the way hahaha. Awesome day spent. thanks to my friends especially Chris!! :D

Oh ya, thanks to afifah for sewing my bag. Now it looks brand new, haha. i'll never get to repay for her kind deed.

2011-07-24T01:45:00.002+08:00

i got cuts just like that,without any warning, notice or even signs.. freaky but yeah.

To sum it all up, i get cuts easily.

find ur way back home.

2011-07-14T00:57:00.002+08:00

"Daylight's coming, the sun is blazing
New beginnings seep into you
But in the end it's distant shadows
That finally overwhelm your senses
And this time around
Is it love that you crown?
And this time around
You'll be more than who you are"

wish i could relive the moments we had.

2011-06-06T21:10:00.003+08:00

picts from awesomepictures

2011-05-24T17:12:00.001+08:00

btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ETHAN PECK :D

MT 'O' LEVEL

2011-05-24T16:43:00.005+08:00

6 more days .

the final year.

2011-01-14T21:05:00.006+08:00

This is it.
The FINAL year.
Gonna be a draggy and dry.
But bear with it because
with perseverence
& endurance
we'll be fine in the end.
All the Laughters & Jokes with
friends
is what keeps us happy
and puts our problems and worries
away.
Hold on to it, tightly.

omg, i got to work hard for O's.
It's now or never.

School = x_x

2011-01-03T21:48:00.006+08:00

SCHOOL STARTS TMR.

OMG.

IM SO GNA BE DEAD

friggin'happy :D

2011-01-03T00:09:00.006+08:00

HAHA MEETING BANDFRIENDS TMR,YOU DONT KNOW HOW HAPPY I WAS WHEN MY MOM LETS ME OFF THIS TIME... WOOHOOOO:)

Goodbye 2010, hello 2011.

2011-01-01T04:19:00.005+08:00

2010 is still a good year to me regardless of the bad times i had during that year.

Ironic isn't it, some people hate new years but ended up liking that year and that they don't want the year to be gone because of another new year. Seems complicated and nonsense to you, but if you understand what i mean, good for you. It's quite sad to always see the year ends and another one starts. It's like a chapter of ur life has ended and that u're gna start a new chapter afresh. But memories will not be easily forgotten. & friendships will still continue.

& before i forget,

Happy New Year.

midnight.

2010-12-17T01:50:00.008+08:00

picture credits ; Ekler .

Many things happened.

The good and the bad.

No matter what, i'll be by your side :)

BOTANIC GARDEN : PART 2

2010-12-13T17:10:00.009+08:00

Sis said that this tree is haunted. there's alot more photos. more than my facebook accnt album lol. lazy to post all.

Botanic Garden

2010-12-13T17:00:00.004+08:00

went to Botanic Garden with my sis.
It's one of her poly assignment -.-
and i dont get how they are gna be graded.
ok, nvm.
anw, she invited Diyanah and her sis, Umairah along...
plus her pri friends, Rahmah and a guy andddd her csp friends... argh, alot others too she invited :|
Glad that i survived during the long walk as im sick at that time and i still am now :(
someone pls save me.
i don't quite regret that much as i get to take pictures of orchids and well, plants.

basketball:D

2010-12-10T22:16:00.003+08:00

today, played basketball with Sabrina, ShiMin and Nolvin :]

played with a basketball player and yeah, she's a girl.

So cool and friendly aahah.

enjoy much :)

& then an african toddler ran to us, and sabrina and me sang sesame street songs.

He laughed and jumped up and down. hahahhaha~

& after he left, sab decided to sing the sesame street song in rock vers. LMAO~

nocturnal.

2010-12-08T02:26:00.001+08:00

I CAN'T SLEEP BUT I'LL TRY TO.

ps; tmr bbq!!

the time of our lives.

2010-12-07T00:40:00.041+08:00

:. JOKE OF THE DAY .:

Home sweet home.

2010-12-07T00:06:00.024+08:00

BACK FROM HK & I'M LOVIN' THE TRIP.
WE GOT A HIGH SILVER FOR THE COMPETITION, ALHAMDULILLAH.
THE TYPE OF FUN WE HAD WAS UNDESCRIBABLE(IN A GOOD WAY),
WE HAVE TO EXPERIENCE AND FEEL IT TO KNOW.
WE'LL MISS ALL OF IT.. THE FUN WE HAD IN HK FOR SURE :'(
LIKE WHAT SAB SAY, THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES :)

on the verge of......

2010-11-29T20:55:00.004+08:00

29 nov 2010, Monday
hi.
it's been a few days since i havent seen my 2 beloved friends.
&, they're sick.
i feel so hopeless and helpless sitting here, hoping they'll recover SOON enough.
hoping and hoping.. asking from God. Keep on asking.. day and night..
Waiting for the end result if my prayers are heard and fulfilled by God.
Here i am again, hoping that my prayers will be fulfilled AND be heard.
But behind all this,deep inside, im crying cos i miss them so much.
TOO DAMN MUCH.
i cant hear their laughters,
i even played tricks on my mind to try and imagine that they are there on the seats of the euphonium section, playing their parts of the song.

So, sabrina and christine, GET WELL SOON! ♥

`2more days.

OUT(again) !

2010-11-17T22:42:00.005+08:00

17th Nov 2010 .

Yeah i promised i'd update today :D First of all, SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI ! ^^ ok continuing.. LOL yesterday went out with Afifah, Noraini and Sabrina. Junaini couldn't make it :( Bought Pull and Bear jacket all thanks to SAB!! hahha for intro it to me. Lots of hard work finding for the right size :((( they knw what i meann. :P i love the smell of new clothes LOL. :B i knw it's weird.. The outing was fun cos we get to walk under the rain. well, lets say under the drizzle instd haha.

& Today, celebrate hari raya haji by going to JP and buy sneakers!!! LMAOO. It was worth it, $19.95 and the cashier told me to round it off to $20 and donate 5CENTS to charity. So i agreed lmao. Seriously, i couldnt understand or hear what the cashier meant. Is it my ear or her pronunciation and the projection of her voice?? idk. think it's my ear :\

Lastly, idk how or when to end this post. but, i think i'll end it here, right now :)

ps; LOVE THE PHOTO IM TAKING!! SATIO!!♥ ROCK ON \m/

outwithsis:)

2010-11-17T00:34:00.019+08:00

16th nov 2010 .
4days ago, which is saturday i guess? Went out to Jurong lake park with sis. yeah, with her. 1st time, went out with her alone lol! I had to help out with her poly work. Seems complicated i thought but all i had to do was to measure for her :P

So.... i grabbed the opportunity to take some photos hehe. :B

See this photo? yeah. it's River Valley High im talking abt here.
So i took photo while waiting for the bus to come.

Jurong Lake Park entrance lol.

idk but this seems creepy :S

this flower seems interesting but weird :\

Ok for once, i thought it was a spider when i saw it -_-''' (below pict)

Do you see any fly??? Btw, the circled one is the fly.. It's green and shiny when i see it i swear! i tried to capture it but one of my hands were busy holding a measuring tape while the other trying to capture a photo of the flyy!!! Plus, i forgot that my photo settings was macro, making part of the focus picture blur.. O_O SOOO WRONGG. wait, WRONGER THAN WRONG. ok wth..

ps; i told my sis it's a fly but she did not believe me. How depressing. T_T

That is not all i have. I still have more pict of cos. I wont be posting all at one shot. It's alrd midnight now. i'll die if i do that. Furthermore, the updating pict progress is tooo damn slow :((

& lastly, today i went out with afifah, noraini and sabrina. ok i'll update more on that tmr. :))

update.

2010-11-11T22:36:00.010+08:00

Ok so this is what happen nowadays in my life since i've not updated for ages!!!!!!!!!

yeah finally i can enjoy taking photos!!! hahhaha. my friends will knw what i mean. ;)

ok here it goes....

i was crazy back then as i took alot of photos~~~

and it was a coincidence that i took the same photo as christine, same day, same scenery, well, almost same time :D

3rd Nov 2010 , 7:08 (mine) 3rd Nov 2010, 7:03(Christine's) -->only 5mins difference XD

even managed to take a bokeh pict!!

Lastly, these are the ppl i spend time with during holidays so far.. cos there's loads of practices. i really miss the rest of my friends :( ps; try to spot me in the photo!!

ok thats all. mannn took me almost an hour to get all this done. seriously, idk what to update about. :P

FOOL.

2010-11-11T22:23:00.004+08:00

"i'm a fool
in love. "

FRIDAY! >> Weekends!

2010-07-30T23:09:00.005+08:00

"Oh, i'm glad that it's friday today~ :D

-Photo credit; x.

2010-07-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

Life can be sweet, bitter and full of surprises.
but one thing for sure, God never said that life would be easy.
There is a reason to what He gives and takes away.
We, must not grumble and should be happy with what we have now.
One day, we might not know if those that we treasured will be taken away.
Why do we have to learn a valuable lesson &then maybe we'll appreciate everything??
Why can't we just do the right thing without experiencing through pain and sufferings..
Maybe it's because us human beings learn from our own mistakes & that's where we start to treasure our life.

almost over.

2010-06-24T20:52:00.005+08:00

ok. first of all~ Holidays are almost over & i haven't catchup on any math revision which i promised myself to do it in order to improve & to feel that
im not that dumb when it comes to solving math sums. how stubborn can i be.. -____-

Secondly, homeworks.. ah yes.. homeworks, NOT FULLY DONE YET! How do i complete 80% of those in like...3 days!?!? Well, i asked for it. :l

Thirdly, i was stupid enough to cut my fringe & now it's in a mess..it was ok on the day where i just had a haircut but now, it turns back to it's original curly wavyy dry waxy thing.. -_-" how do i even pin it up when it's too short? Guess i'll have to use several pins then. It's a nono to headbands!! x(

Forthly, i just survived a whole week of band pract with ms tan's scoldings of course. :\ well, it's part of life in order to learn from your mistakes. just have to work hard.

Lastly, im tired, exhausted, feeling pretty lethargic, dying, lack of food, sleep, excercise(wait, excercise? no way), obviously lack of drilling on my weak subject(s), LOL. &, alot more~ So, my main point is, im NOT READY FOR SCHOOL. yeah. you got it. nahh, not ready at all~
But, can't wait to see my friends on Mon :)))

-Photo credits to ; excomedia

i miss you :(

2010-06-14T18:22:00.002+08:00

evening :)
ok. this week, i've been very busy with the pure geog proj once again. But, it's done now :D all done, like finally. thanks to Amelia !! 8) ha ha ha. & every night, flashbacks always appear in my mind. i dont know why memories keep appearing.. i don't even wna rmb them.. Could there be a reason behind this? Everytime i look at the stars, they just appear one by one. LOL. ok, some nights i was on the phone with Christine, gosh, i miss her right now. :'( Well, she's sick and so am i. Having a headache these few days... i had a bad sore throat ytd. Today, it was better :D im glad i could finish off the proj today.. glad that i was strong enough to go out and pick some rocks just for the proj.. didnt tell amelia that i was sick..it's ok, the proj must and will carry on! :) :) :) argh...bad headache now.....

to _________(u knw who u are),
idk why but i feel sad whenever you are sad :( hope i could go there and help ! hahaa. well, u are really a good friend, my bestf!!! ;)

new blogskin,

2010-06-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

idk whats up with me these days.
im not myself now, right STAR? LOL
i just feel like changing my blogskin.
so sick and tired of it. idk why..
well, it may be plain but at least, it's not messy :P

tmr, loads of stuff to do with pure geog proj.
hope the plan works~

till then.

BandCamp2010.

2010-06-07T19:54:00.004+08:00

one word to describe ; Fun.
ok, maybe it was undescribable.
you have to see it to believe it.
yeah, something like that.. :)

-my group members rock! \m/

grocery shopping LOL.

2010-05-31T20:36:00.005+08:00

HA HA HA.
-that was what we did when we were out finding the groceries we need for band camp. i love it. every single bit of it. i love how the way i see my friends arguing(in a friendly way) and making a hell out of noise whether it's enough for the people or whether it's too expensive, just to choose a simple bread. i love how the way we run just to get a cart & everything went so fast till we end up being slowed down by a random old woman[sry if i call you 'old'] with her cart :P i love how the way my friends calculate the prices, love how chaotic we are till we could be recognised by the noise we made & people just looked at us, thinking we're crazy. hahaha. well, those moments were.. undescribable. :)

thank you for making my day today. im so glad that today is filled up with laughters & excitements. it's no longer a boring Monday for me! :D

& yes, im grounded. LOL. had to beg just to attend today's outing cos.. IT'S FREAKING IMPORTANT!

flunkk.

2010-05-31T20:07:00.008+08:00

ohmannn, once again.. my results. Not up to my mom's standard, obviously i did badly. that's not my best. so not my best. whatthe. miss ann neo have been acting strange & smiling to my mom saying 'your child is good:) she's a very good student:):)' etc.. more weird constructive comments.. for the first time, im freaked out by her.

My mom's face was priceless when she saw my grades.. miss neo, pointing at it onee by oneee.... i was like oh nooooo. *slaps forehead* & then, just when miss neo needs an explanation why my MYE pull my grades down, there goes my mom again, talking abt last year.. NA and exp thingy. & i gave her the what-the-hell-mom? look. luckily miss neo said i'm still ok in exp. what a relief. *phewww* ... time management was my alibi for flunking in MYE -___- to be honest, i did last minute revision.. i know it's wrong. but what can i do? im just as stubborn as before. someone have to knock some sense into my head, seriously. it's sooo ironic that the report book comment contradicts with my performance in academic. Comment: 'She is a quiet and hardworking pupil who is coping well in her studies.' pfft , yeah rightttt..like as if :\
Conduct: VERY GOOD. uh, you've got to be kidding me.. it should be 'VERY BAD'

ahhhhh whats wrong with me nowadays... ohyeah, distracted by a lot of stuff. well, just, stuff..

"there's certain things you just have to let go.."

guide me home.

2010-05-22T14:31:00.007+08:00

"Its ok if you fall, there's lights to guide you through."

CHRISTINE BDAY :D

2010-05-17T20:06:00.002+08:00

(the only photo that has the 4 of us!)

ok so, this is what we do,

taking pictures all the way like tourists.

haha. :D

OUT OUT!♥

2010-05-15T12:10:00.003+08:00

HEY! HAHA! SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING FOR A LONNGGGGG TIME!! : )

GONNA GO OUT WITH THEM(plus christine)!

HERE I COME!~

-it's sad that fifah cant go :(

they complete me. :)

2010-04-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

certain days makes me...
feel.. happy
at times, those days make me feel..
sad..angry.. and sometimes i just cry in silence.
but i knw that
one day, it'll turn out to be a great day
thanks to my friends doesnt matter
bestfriends or just friends.
they're like the valuable treasure in my life
that i can keep in my heart.

they are the ones
who make me laugh whenever im feeling down deep inside my heart.
& they make me wonder how did they make me burst into laughter
when i just felt so sad a few seconds ago.

they are the ones who
make me smile
when i try not to
as i thought it's not worth smiling
cause something affected your life.

they are the ones who
are there whenever you face problems
& need someone to lean on

they are the ones who
teases you
and lets you tease them back
without anyone getting hurt

i guess,
they are the ones who
make a difference in your life

they're the puzzle of my heart.

updated for peiwen. lol~ XD

2010-04-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

these few days, i've been feeling exhausted & worn out on school days esp on longer days like mon and tue : im seriously behind time when it comes to studies. im so so stubborn that i did not prepare for any test. esp math test and the best part is, i knew it was gonna be counted as one of the exams marks. must be.. hmm.. too tired to think.. im like multi-tasking here.. currently studying pure geog, at the same time, trying to crack my brain on how to do my MT compo on Olympic. & of cos, im playing comp too haha :D cant resist the temptation of touching the keyboard with my itchy itchy fingers :B ok, that sounds so wrong.

anw, ohyeahh updating on certain events;
sports day was fun. loads of fun. 8)

uh.. what else? i think i forget wht i did for the past few days. sorry yea. ok, today.. today, it was dooms day for eng. my group had to be the first to debate since the 1st grp was done on the day before. so, continuing with our grp. & whoa, my grp was the first to debate and i was the first of the first to start the debate as i was the 1st speaker. :\ hah! great. after long draggy lessons, it was time for rehearsal. again, it was tiring as we need to move the stands and our instruments up to the hall. i think this will help to build up muscles for our arms lol.

k k k k k ... what now... oh yes, tests.. loads of tests this week. there's even 2 geog test in a week. & im studying the 2nd one. this time, it's gna be approximately 2hr test? & there's loads of information to be uploaded in my brain and save it till the day is over lol. think my brain's gna explode sooner or later, seriously. ok i'll end my post here. hope this will be long enough for peiwen to read. [:<

happy now peiwen? hahahha. i dare you to label my blog unglam again, i'll hunt you down the next day lol. kiddin! :D
ps; my eyes are watching you! ;)

speechless

2010-03-26T18:40:00.001+08:00

wow. first time, fail an important subject.
-oh great. o_o

leadership camp :O

2010-03-16T22:36:00.006+08:00

Band Leadership Camp coming!o_o

-FREAK OUT. AHHHHH!

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-SURVIVED THE CAMP, PHEW.

MAR HOL.. T_T

2010-03-15T21:24:00.004+08:00

heyho.
ohyeahh.. it's the mar hols. WOOOHOOO... im sooooo happy... *sigh* oh how i wish my brain will be superbrain so i can do my hol assignments in 5mins? Lol. every sub, there's homework & i dont think i can find time to complete all the dreadful assignments. plus, i have a busy schedule -ohgreat.

"so many homework YET, TOO LIL' TIME!"

fool.

2010-03-01T22:26:00.001+08:00

"oh, look what you've done

you made a fool of everyone

oh well it seems like such fun

until you lose what you've had won."

love the song, jet-look what you've done. :)

:')

2010-02-18T19:09:00.000+08:00

i miss all my friends. :(

STUDY.

2010-02-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

STUDY.STUDY.STUDY.STUDY.STUDY.STUDY.STUDY!

the woops♥

2010-02-15T20:51:00.003+08:00

so long, so long

2010-02-12T20:59:00.002+08:00

common test coming.. damn. gotta study before anything goes wrng..or before i fail. no. not gna fail. must pass.. not just a pass, but with great marks. after saying all that, i guess none inspires me at all, thats bad :)

lastly(i think), band room didnt open today. quite upset. :(

lastly(confirm), enjoyed CNY concert except for the part where my legs start to disobey by having cramps. :S

do you remember.

2010-02-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

oh yeahhh!
today during band.
one moment in time was the best!!
enjoyed playing the song. hehe.
but abba gold, uhhmmm.. not there yet eh.
hope we rmb how we play the other pieces like cant take my eyes off you. :(
hope hope.

read between the lines.

2010-02-01T22:22:00.001+08:00

"there's nothing i could say to you
nothing i could ever do to make you see
what you mean to me."

doesnt mean anything.

2010-01-27T19:01:00.001+08:00

"this beautiful city seems empty..
all the people in the world and u can still feel lonely
whats the point of having it all without the person you love?
sometimes you just need to start again,
in order to fly.."

-alicia keys; doesnt mean anything

encore?

2010-01-27T17:57:00.003+08:00

hahaha! heyyy:] today was a great day!! had loads of fun with afifah, afifi, aishah and sufi :D hehe, laughed alot when dancing and singing with sufi. omg, just like the old days :) haix. haha. sufi and i had our own "concert" ;) i guess sufi, afifah and the rest should know what i mean. haha.. ok, signing offf. :P

your presence.

2010-01-25T19:28:00.001+08:00

"The further we are apart, the nearer I feel you are.
Even my loneliness turns into strength... when I think of you."

SIGH AH!

2010-01-04T20:22:00.006+08:00

to Sab; AWW! im so touched by her post!!! didnt cross in my mind tht you would put our picture!!!! haha, it remind me of the days we took photos together.. walking down the lane.. and i borrowed ur family sonyy camera to take this tree with the footpath! and it turned out well!!! stil rmb when we were so thirsty till we didnt notice the vending machine at the bridge of chinese garden entrance !!! and when we realise, i bought the drink and there was a lizard! HAHHA. still rmb my jeans got wet! cause of sitting on the grass! HAHA! & we found this area, with pebbles! just so beautiful! there was a white bird, but it flew away! LOL. then we went in the tower and climbed up the stairs! it was tiring but FUN! the view is great, or not! haha. :)

to Sufi; woah! hindustani friend!! rmb we used to sing hindustani songs during sec1? and rmb that time when we sang 'breaking free' and when we ended our song, sab was clapping excitedly? rmb the days we were pretending as if we're flying away by the strong wind at the staircase near mr fadzel's art room? rmb we danced with bai 'all the single ladies'? & mr goh saw us ? HAHA. those memories were great! i'll miss you dude !

to Afifah; Hey! haha. we were like the most craziest together right? i still miss the last day of sch where you make my day throwing my pencil box, chasing me, making me fall haha! & the bbq, water bomb and all. just so FUN! haha, what abt the day when i fooled you abt the lizard? HAHA/ and us, going to this mobile building somewhere in the middle of the trip, we were laughing all the way non stop ? we crossed tht expressway together! and thank Allah we're still alive! haha.

to Baizura; yea baby yea! hahah! still rmb you saying that last year! so cuteeee! i rmb during MT, sec1 mdm zubaidah changed seats and we sat together! then u asked me how to spell a mly word LOL! and we always sit with each other in EVERY LESSON! LOL! then we saw Alif, and we were like.. 'eh, Aliff...Aziz!' and we laughed.. i rmb when we slept during Mdm Rozita's bio lesson! and she woke us up! HAHAH! & tht time when it was the fasting month and u saw jin at the chair behind us, Chunwei was so frightened! till he squeezed peiying! and in the end, peiying exchanged seats with him! HAHAH!

dear shabek , even tho H and K isnt here, still miss them to the core. gosh... so many memories with you guys in classroom 1N1 and 2N1 ... so many thoughts and words to describe in my mind.. but i'll never get it out.. just too many to mention.. alot of things we've been through.. and yet, we stayed strong together.. rmb we sang "burning up" together? hahaha. so fun.. we played with the tennis ball and it landed on the shelter of the sch and dropped to the grass.. and sufi picked it up carefully and sneakishly without letting the security guard notice! LOL! still rmb the photos we took together! it's so empty without u guys...thats what sabrina said. it is empty..it's like..living without air to breathe. how can i still survive ?? i should be dead by now. cause u guys arent there by baizura's and my side to face challenges together.. it's just so wrong.

stupid.

2009-12-31T19:50:00.002+08:00

i hate 2009.

i hate how it goes.

i hate how it ends.

i hate 2009, wish it doesnt exist.

idiot despo .

hate 2009! 2010 come faster!

2009-12-31T13:53:00.003+08:00

oh fuck. hate 2009. esp today. the last day of YEAR2009; 31st dec 2009.

fought with one of my bestfriends in the entire world, fifah. i hate fighting..

esp with one of the members in SHABEK. mannn.. can this year be ANY WORSE?!

LOL. heh. hah. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee 2010! CAN YOU PLEASE BE QUICK!!! can this world turn any faster?! i want 2010 now.. start a fresh life..year..dont wna fight anymore lahh... stupid misunderstandings..i hate misunderstandings.. when will it get lost from my life?! like, you can get lost now, i dont need you in my life, you ruined everything..my perfect friendship..you ruined my life TWICE!!!! or maaybe THRICE! with my 3 best best friends ever.. in fact, lost 2 of them.. now i guess im gna lose 1 more. ugh. whatever.. i hate life in 2009. just wna live in 2008.

ok, to whoever still angry or hate me, im sorry sorry sorry. real sorry. even though i dont sound apologethic enough, i really mean it ok. im sorry i hurt your heart. im sorry if those heart cnt be mend anymore.. im sorry if i scolded you.. im sorry for being an idiot.. im sorry 2009.

wth?! why am i apologising to 2009?! that year made me miserable!!!! made me lost bestfriends; best i ever had!!!! made me waste my tears.. :'(

curse you 2009.

love remains the same.

2009-12-26T18:33:00.004+08:00

someone's gotta know that,

for the first time in my life..

gona start first day of school..

without SHABEK.'

S are gone,

H is gone forever..

A are gone,

B is gone,

E is me, gone,

K is gone,

there is never a full stop in SHABEK..

and they say,

"yes,its sad when we separate.. but once a SHABEK, always a SHABEK!"

happilyneverafter?

2009-12-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

well, that, is what im feeling but i realise, that friends is better. i appreciate what i have now. i dont need love now but maybe i do need later. we need friends all the time to be by our side whenever in need. :)

this goes to shabeks!!

photo credit to xdesx!

what about love?

2009-12-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

"you can close your eyes to the things you dont want to see but you cant close your heart to the things you dont want to feel"

photo credit: xdesx

SYLVIA RATONEL!♥

2009-12-13T14:28:00.005+08:00

omg, i mean like come'on! she's the best best best for me lah. Lol. She rocks alott! these are the reasons why she rock :

1. She's pretty!

2. She's cute when she laughs!

3. Saw one of the behind scenes video and she's totally hilarious when she dances crazily!

hahaaa, funny funny. lol:) ok, i guess have to wait for 27th december for the final showdown- Sezairi vs Sylvia!

p.s sorry to sezairi fans out there as i compliment sylvia alot. but seriously, she rocks! ;P

SYLVIA RATONEL -
She rocks my socks .

MISSS!

2009-12-07T22:37:00.003+08:00

*sigh* as i listen to beyonce sweet dreams and all the single ladies, it reminds me of shabeks. those days..dancing to the beat, laughing and singing along..what a waste. nxt yr we'll be separated. :( how sad. well, tmr im meeting them first :) cause tmr's class gathering. haha. gna watch newmoon with them once again. yes, im willing to let my money fly away just to please them. friends are more precious than money to me haha. [:

iMISSshabeks!!

NEW MOON , here we come! d:

2009-12-02T19:34:00.002+08:00

heyyy .
tmr's the day !
goin movie with pri schl friends<3 !
&, cant wait ! :D

well, still hoping that i could go on 8dec.
trying to find a way,
hang on guys .

TOMORROW :D

2009-11-30T21:14:00.001+08:00

haha!
going to lib and jp with fifah! <3
and , will be meeting afifi and bai<3 as well!!! :3
okok, daaa~

distant diomand sky

2009-11-26T22:19:00.003+08:00

in the middle of the night
when im in this dream,
its like a million little stars
spelling out your name .

alyssa bernal! :D

2009-11-10T15:22:00.002+08:00

hey ! i found this cool video! she's preeeetyyy! she looks a bit like vanessa though.. , (:

boredom!

2009-11-04T15:57:00.003+08:00

helloo.
today, had fun plurking!
with fifah:D
ok, i have to get ready for tmr as it is my mom's bday
haha.
hope tmr will be a pleasant day (:
hoping that i wont make her angry !!
:B

& to that person,
i knw you nvr tag my blog as you're sick of me .
well, guess what.
me too. even my friends are sick of you.

dark clouds coming .

2009-11-02T15:32:00.002+08:00

hey,
here once again, with the dark clouds approaching.
& now, it's raining .
im alone ,
so dark..
so silent..
and so alone..

what a gloomy day.

more!

2009-11-01T16:47:00.003+08:00

more about satio ? Lol.

phone>:D

2009-11-01T16:42:00.002+08:00

ok, can i have Sony Ericsson Satio phone? i've been dying to have this phone. Lol. and its like $938 ! :O

last day.

2009-10-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

hello.
today, last day of school. finally. hah. had fun too but not as fun as yesterday :D anw, afifah chased me around in the class while the others record video of memorable 2n1 :') aft cahsing around, tired. sat down, i record video. and it's my last time to be in the atmosphere of 2n1..the noise.. the smell of it.. the laughters heard.. the chit chats.. all will be treasured. & then, baizura cried..awww~ so cute when she cries . she cries cause she's gna miss 2n1. )': after cooled down, she did the beyonce dancesteps once again and people recording it. haha :D

aft that, got back report book . went to AVT and had a short brief on headstart prog -.- oh mann.. another tight schedule. band, headstart prog and eng remedial. in avt, bai took out 2n1 photo and we took a glance of it and she hugged it tightly. nearly cried..as i looked at her, turned away and tried to hold back my tears.. anw, yes..though 2n1 may be barbarians, i still miss being part of them.. ok, end post.

i guess, this is where we say
goodbye .
'no more writing "2N1" on the worksheets and exam papers and homeworks.. :'(

the end.

2009-10-28T20:46:00.002+08:00

hey.
today, had fun with bai and sufi in the art room aft schl! we were dancing to the song 'single ladies-beyonce knowles' LOL.
and, bai danced like kaku and cute! i dance like omg..no comment. ahah. sufi danced so sexy! LOL. but too bad we werent able to take video cause sufi's phone had to play the song..bai's phone low batt..and for mine, low memory . heh heh. so damn fun when we dance. me and bai become backup singer plus dancer and sufi became the singer, sufi knowles!! XD

after dancing(lol) ,we were tired and sat down. & we started talking abt ghost stories..what we encounter in schl or at home..as bai were telling her encounter with a ghost in rulang toilet, suddnly we heard someone knocking. we were shocked and frightened. then, sufi checked on the door..it was Aishah. Phew! if it was a ghost, i'll freak out.

today, is the 2nd last day of school and yet, sabrina and afifah isnt here with us. once again, shabek is incomplete. LOL. but its ok guys, hope u guys could come tmr.. last day babe, last day...

tmr is gna be sad for me....gonna miss 2n1..all the jokes they made during chem..the way they make the class havoc and in chaos whenever the teacher hasnt arrived yet.. im not gonna experience that anymore..ok hope tmr gna be the best day,
and, it will. :D

2nd&last day of camp :'(

2009-10-27T19:04:00.003+08:00

hey! [:
today, was the best experience and moments of camp i ever had. ok, it was tiring in the beginning where we had to climb up alot of stairs. and then it gets more and more exciting , let me tell you why ;D

a fam ; father, mother and a baby monkeys found on the ledge of the kent ridge metal bridge.
when we were admiring it, saying they were cute ,
the father and mother suddnly mated ! :O
we were slow at first..
but then when we processed it in our brain and after we understood what they were doing,
we suddnly freaked out , screamed and ran! ~
AHAHAH~

and, the baby chased us followed by her mother . we were scared that they might attack us or something. all our faces and reactions were shocking and well...let me guess...HILARIOUS!
LOL.

the activities were great and fun too. enjoyed it vry much :D overall, it was tremendously awesome, really made our group(which is suppose to be future sec3 class?)
as a team, a class. (:

those moments were just undescribable,
but, sad to say, i wont be with them anymore as i'll be promoting, :'(

1st day of camp.

2009-10-26T19:23:00.002+08:00

hello!
ok, today's camp was LOL .
hahah.
had fun actually.
:)
alot of trust and team spirit to build in.
and, if my sec3 class is that grp , so gna be fun :D

VIVO .

2009-10-22T15:40:00.002+08:00

Hey
ok, VIVO edutrail sucks, alot.
im like in other group from the shabeks.
and, my form teacher apologise to me for putting me with the guys.
i only had two companies.. meixuan and afifi.
but sometimes they did things on their own.
so, at times, im all alone.
but, its ok.
i could predict this would happen anw.
alright, next, im quite sad as the shabeks took photo together without me.
yes, without me.
but its ok..some ppl might think that it's childish for getting upset over a small matter,
but if u were in my shoes, how would you feel?

they said its the last year we're gonna be together,
but where's the perfect reunion?

flabbergasted ? a yes ? should i ?

2009-10-21T14:22:00.004+08:00

ok.
alright.
so,
something made me..
dumbfounded .
actually , there was a few emotions in me - couldnt believe it..contented..still couldnt believe it..sorrow..heart broken..frustrated..confused..
i actually get what i usually craved for from the day i stepped into yuan ching but now,
i dont actually need it..
im perfectly fine with my wonderful, hilarious, awesome classmates and close friends in NA.
and now, i have to part from them ?
this is so making me confused.

if i agree with the transfer,
this means..
this means.....
no more..
no more singing with the SHABEKS in class..
no more playing with them during lesson..
no more laughters and making jokes with them..
no more having the same homeworks and class tests
where we usually complain and talk about it together..
no more sitting together in one row during assembly..
no more walking to one class to another together...
all of this will not be the same anymore .

well, ytd me and bai decided..
and we have decided..
i guess,
it's a yes .

cause these things will change, can you feel it now ?
the walls that hold us back will fall down.

raya .♥

2009-10-19T22:43:00.006+08:00

ah yes, i nearly forget.
RAYA with SHABEKS .
it was fun,
full of
laughters and not grief.
ok, lazy to post more. just a picture will do.
picture speaks a thousand words so yeah .

-picture taken by fifah .

:')

2009-10-19T22:07:00.008+08:00

hellllooooo world.

and yes,short weekend & deepavali is over .

no more open house, no more going to cousin's house

and no more sleeping with the aircon on (':

andd now, im just sulking here like a girl with no life.

why ?

firstly because,
people always scolds me .

blames me like as if im the devil here.

and, they always think they're right.
ah yes, im alwayyys wrong .
that's what you think right ?.

yes ? no ?
why dont you just go ask God if im wrong ?
well ,what do you think ?

and secondly, my sister gave me a lecture like as if i need one .
wait, it's not even a lecture..
it's sentences filled with words full of brutality and harshness
those words just pierced through my soul one by one.
yes, i was critisized, again.

well, i dont give a damn.
i dont care no more..
all i have to say is,
well done erni.
you've made ur life like this.
and im proud of myself..
hehs.

all these grief in me,
i cant take this melancholy life anymore.

results.!

2009-10-15T16:06:00.003+08:00

yo .
today, the results were out .
heh heh.
it was okay overall. (:
quite happy.
but, deprove alot in math and phy :B
i hate phy . (:<

cloudy : with a chance of meatballs :D

2009-10-13T21:04:00.001+08:00

today, went out with shabeks and amalina. :D
and watched a movie - cloudy: with a chance of meatballs.
COOL SHOW! HIGHLY RECOMMENDED! :D:D
wow..today was the most awesome movie and outing ever!!!
my money was worth it. :)
alright tmr have to jalan raya with friends .
gna be another exhausting but fun day haha . :P

between the lines .

2009-10-05T20:42:00.002+08:00

i live here on my knees
as i try to make you see
that you're everything i think i need
But you're neither friend nor foe ,
though i cant seem to let you go .

back!

2009-09-27T11:23:00.002+08:00

hey im back:D
udpated for ayu alrd. heh heh (:<
-.-idk when to jalan raye with the shabeks and 2n1 islam girls and boys(??) .
that would be like arnd 10 .
what a large num. :\ cool~ hahh !.
strange things have been happening in my life nowadays .
reason ? idk .
im starting to go bongkus when i study .
im too lazyy to study . :P
and, one of my friends are acting differently and awkward. [fifah shld knw ;D]
i just knew one truth .
& , i was shocked .
all i have to say is , what telah happen??

EOY !

2009-09-27T11:02:00.002+08:00

hohoho~
today is the only day i can online before the exams . :S
i online today cause have to help to post my my dear friend's blog , hidayu (:
okok i guess i have to post for her now.
bye~

GOOD LUCK FOR EOY PEOPLE ! :D

midnight :D

2009-09-20T03:48:00.003+08:00

hello .
haha, still awake ?
hmm, same .
couldnt sleep somehow.
tmr big and busy day.
finally, someone msg me :D
kay wna try to sleep, bye.

selamat hari raya maaf zahir&batin
~

end of ramadhan .

2009-09-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

tday is the day.
ramadan has ended.
saddened. :(

raya is tmr. gna be busy !
LOL.
im gna munch mostly on kuehs ! :D

ok, thats all ,
updated . (:

teachers day .

2009-09-02T17:06:00.003+08:00

met my pri. friends;syaz,ayu,sha,zul,nurul,adila,farhana on teachers day which is on 31st oct . everything changed alot , compared to the old days . everyone's wearing different uniforms ,no longer the same . wow..there's just so many things to describe on that day..i didnt knw what to say when saw ayu walking towards us with her ping yi uni..&i didnt knw what to say when i saw syaz..LOL .

but frankly, after the hangout , i miss them :(

realised .

2009-09-02T15:06:00.004+08:00

as i prayed ,

as i bow to the floor[bersujud] ,

i realised that it's useless telling yourself how bad life is ,

cause in the end,

we'll be dead..returning back to Him

with full of questions awaiting for us to answer .

&life here ,is just temporary .

keranaMu ,aku bersujud
keranaMu ,aku berdoa
keranaMu ,aku berzikir
keranaMu ,Ya Allah ,aku bermohon...
ampunilah dosa2 ku

updated .

2009-08-31T14:02:00.000+08:00

sry for not updating for a long time .
had been busy .
all i have to say is
i've lost of hope , faith .

i dont get you
neither do i want you .

somewhere....one day...

2009-08-17T22:14:00.003+08:00

i'll meet you at a place ,

where our hopes and dreams are ,
where our problems are put far away across the horizon ,
where our imagination run wild ,
where we could put on a smile ,
& let our nightmares fade for awhile .

2009-08-10T20:10:00.006+08:00

heyyyyyyyyy peeeps .
ytd was the best day of my life .
ndp was great ! awesome !
all the camera flashes ,
the red and white heart lights,
the heart balloons ,
i missed it ,
i miss the runnings ...
i miss eating lunch ...
i miss teasing _____ with fiona and sabrina..
i miss wearing the costume ...
i miss going to school every saturday ...
i miss holding the heart light and wave to the audience...
i miss the fireworks ashes drop on our heads ..
i miss running to the stairs and dance .
i miss the finale of course!!!!! ~
GAAAAH~
well let's say that i miss ndp !!! :(

- " & they were dancing , and singing and movin' to the groovin' "

ndp, no ? yes?

2009-08-06T17:17:00.005+08:00

ahha .
thanks for the bday wishes ytd . was contented . :D

oh no, no way im gna perform for the whole school .
bloody hell .
with the ndp costume ?!
what shit is this ?.
th' costume is so weird . no offence yah .
ohh mann . hope can change back to the ndp t-shirt.
im hating life in school alr . :\
someone save me .
alright sabrina , im coming to school .
no games ok .

hoarse voice ,

2009-08-02T20:19:00.002+08:00

omg,
im sick.
omg,
im sick!
omg,
i AM SICK!!!!!! :O

NOOOOOOOOOOOO~ cant attend school tmr i guesssssss....so sry nurul , you have to go to school without me :( hate to leave my friend(s) all alone like bai, ytd during ndp she was quite sad cause sufi,sab and i wasnt there..we were all sick..anw, i just missed the ndp preview, ohhh great..and my last chance is the actual day, which is on sundayy, must do it right . hehehh,let the audience enjoy the wonderful show. lol, seen michelle chong as babarella up close .XD she looks cute ok! hahahha. she actually smiled at us, yuan ching students !!! :D including me! and waved back . lolol so not sombong like some artiste lahh.

anw, life's sucks nwadays...i kinda miss otp with my primary friends...haha. idk lah why sec 2 life sucks alr...ssec1 was awesome...sec2, turns out bad,,i guess sec 3 gna be worse huh . :\

hate it!

2009-07-27T19:58:00.003+08:00

heyho .
was plurking on plurk just now .
so tired, feels like sleeping .
tday at school was quite fun .
but had quite a rough day .
there seems to have a problem in my links ...
some of the names are in capital letters..wonder what's the error .
heh,
im having lots of tests and compositions to do nowadays, wth .
the part wher i hate the most, is 'homeworks' , yes homeworks .
that "innocent" word .
pfft :\

ah yes , i almost forgot .
tmr there's band . gna be another exhausting day .

my mini-fan ! (bought from blgps .)

2009-07-15T19:38:00.002+08:00

yay, my mini fan finally,

though the face looks weird .

my mom laughs when she looks at it,

she say like my face like that -.-

okay mama, you can stop laughing now .

stand in the rain ;

2009-07-13T19:00:00.003+08:00

heyho .

on sat, was freaking fun ! we were performing for ndp for the p5 then at night, as we performed, dancing, it started drizzling and then heavy downpour :D wow, that was the best day of my life mannn~ all of us were shouting like crazyy all hyped-up ! All of us were jumping , it's like the rain give us energy . ha ha . & then as we say the national pledge , my eye was damn painful cause of the make-up . the rain washed it away and i closed my eyes . it was like almost heaven as i close my eye and feel the rain . (: how i wish every ndp practise , the weather will be like that . :3 in the end, we were freezing cold when we got up the bus . all of us were tired of course. and i had to go home with zodi and mr liew X( so weird going home with a teacher, i mean it. o.o

lol, insanity's in me .

2009-07-07T22:51:00.005+08:00

?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!HELLO(:
anw, today went christine hoouse , so long nvr go ther . ehem ....then we help her do her blog but instead., we sang songs together . ;D aft. that went home, realised that i made mom anngry . sry mom! :( felt bad abt it for not calling her that i wna go home, now i realised how angry she is it's like i can feel it . hah ! :D alright , thats all bye folks! [;[;[;[;[;[;[;

p.s i miss everything we used to have , frankly, i miss the past . :'((((((((

thanks, omg .

2009-07-06T21:00:00.003+08:00

hey,
just wna say to sabrina that hope she'll get a new camera better one . if not, i'll fork in some money....and to fifah , sorry for offlining while the song is transfering to yours . cause my msn suddenly off by itself and i cant on it back , wth -.- these days i've been laughing non stop . good laughters and bad ones . so yeah , thanks to my friends for making me laugh real hard . (:

ps; ayu goin' ping yi same as my cousin skl! omg, XD

hehhs ,

2009-07-01T20:37:00.006+08:00

the only help i can turn to is Allah ,
Ya Allah, help me, guide me to the right path and please forgive my mistakes because a girl like me is weak and i cant handle any sorrows or any of your tests anymore . Im just living in this world to be faithful to you .
and do the right deed .please guide me to the place where i only see happiness.

"aku hanya manusia biasa."

haywire .

2009-06-29T19:20:00.002+08:00

tday in school seriously tired . slept during eng lesson but ms heng didnt notice . had haywire chatting with ethan and hamizan ...then ethan added some more ppl .. -.- hahaha ;D soooo tired to blog . byee peepos . (:

still watching, waiting,hoping .

2009-06-24T20:34:00.003+08:00

i watched you walk away

as i hold onto the words inside me

afraid to pour it out

& my heart is heavy ,

heavy like a rock

i cant stand it

when you walk away & leave me behind .

im waiting here ,

still, no words from you .

all i want is to hear ur voice

calling out my name ,

saying that im urs, forever in ur heart

and that you will never forget me .

so tell me, will you care for me till my last breath ?

cousin's house ,

2009-06-24T17:19:00.004+08:00

look how cute she is! [:

it's cool to stay in my cousin's house
i could see the cats
i could play the keyboard and the rest of the instruments
but, sad to say my cousins were on a holiday
and we have to take care of their cats (:
lol .

holidays ? not for me .

2009-06-16T13:31:00.002+08:00

really busy in holidays . no rest , only like...around 10 days of rest the rest either school or go out . lol :D im here to say farewell to my cousins who are going overseas for their holiday . (: bonjour ! have a safe trip ! though i dont knw where they go. c: okok, till here . lazy to post more . hah . BYE~:D

haunted .

2009-06-01T21:35:00.013+08:00

done by me, [:

Life sucks nowadays ..
why do i always have a bad life ??
it seems like everything about me is wrong .
i tried to fit in with the others but it doesnt seem right ,
i just had a miserable life
and just when that life is over ,
another one comes ..
and this time, the person is important in my life .
why does this life keep haunting me ?
her words ...her face ...haunting me one by one ..
kept repeating in my mind for days now .
i dont know what to do tmr once i see her .
i wont be able to eat lunch with her nor laugh with her .
because of her , i learned to play on the safe side so that i wont get hurt .
because of her , i find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me ...
because of her , im ashamed of my life because it's empty ,
because of her , i am afraid ..
she just felt her pain
and now i cry in the middle of the night
for the same damn thing ..
i lost my way
and it's not too long before you point it out ..
i cannot cry because i know there's weakness in your eyes
im forced to fake a smile , a laugh everyday in my life
maybe i will not let my heart cause so much misery ...

maths remedial ~

2009-06-01T16:35:00.004+08:00

Wooh ! guess what ?Miss Chin is gonna cancel math remedial on Thur & Fri !!! Wooooohooooo!
No more math remedial . Oh yeah~
haha:D during math lesson , ms chin taught us problem sums for linear equation... i had no mood to study larhh... then ms chin had to meet someone and she said we're gonna have 10 mins break ! a miracle happen ! everyone was like Yayyyyy!! and i drank water from the vending machine ..i was really damn thirstyy ! after studying , abt 11.20am , we can go home !! another miracle happen again, I was like YES !

after that, went lib with afifah ..borrowed books . had lots of fun . lol . i wonder where sab go ...she could have go to the lib with us ): i knw she's still angry at me . i've said sorry to her , im not gonna disturb her anymore since she ask for it .